I have noooo idea what I'm going to do instead, which is why I'm so >:( about it! I'm thinking maybe something circa S7. IDK.
You should totally write that! The awkwardness was why I was thinking about writing the post-Field Trip thing, too. It's like, hey! Your sister turned out to be starlight and then we got together and you were abducted and I found out I was pregnant and then you were dead and then you weren't and then you went on the run and I gave away the baby and we went on the run and theeeen ended up in a ramshackle house in Virginia! EXCEPT NONE OF IT HAPPENED. :D? . . . I like how I immediately wrote that from Scully's perspective. Um. I think I would have fun figuring out who hallucinated what, though -- it would have been a mutual hallucination, but parts of it would have been more inspired by one of them than the other? I can totally imagine Mulder hallucinating that his sister became starlight, and Scully hallucinating that Mulder died, especially since she already did. I have given way too much thought to this. ANYWAY. I cannot seem to stop spamming you tonight, SORRY.
I totally do have an unfinished thing sitting around somewhere. /o\ IDEK.
HEY YOU KIND OF HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT YOU MIGHT WITH IT THOUGH. Oh my goshhhhhhh, you should try, because that sounds fabulous, and yes, it would be SO AWKWARD. And so much of it does seem hallucinated-- the horrible stupid brain disease would be Scully's invention, Reyes and the mountain man beard were all Mulder. And then! They're stuck back in 1999 and they're still young and pretty and... oh my god, think of the slight tinge of William angst you could do with that. OH MAN, to jump from that level of imagined intimacy to... the end of season 6. It could be fun.
AND IT'S FINE. I wouldn't've made this entry in the first place if I didn't secretly want an excuse to further avoid this.
GODDAMMIT, I might actually have to write it now! Maybe not for xf_santa, since I don't know if I could finish that kind of fic in a week, but I want to at least try. I've actually got, um, three sentences? And it would be so easy to explain the hallucinations as latent fears brought to light -- like, Scully being uncertain of where she stands with Mulder re: Fowley and whatnot, and that could translate into her hallucinating Mulder was hiding the brain disease. Aaaand jeez, I feel like William would have an impact even if he were a hallucination? Losing him probably wouldn't hurt any less because he was a hallucination -- it could even hurt more BECAUSE he was a hallucination. And, like you said, to jump from the S8-9/IWTB level of intimacy to the end of season 6. It could be interesting.
WOW I AM SUCH AN OVERTHINKER. I'm totally going to have to try to write this now. Aaah.
OH YAY! And yes yes yes, hallucinations as latent fears! A lot of the Mulder leaving/being abducted/always being gone could be explained by his fear of not ever being enough for Scully. And yes, the thing about William is that if he's gone after that hallucination, it's not just that he's gone, it's that he can no longer ever exist? TALK ABOUT ANGST.
BUT I REALLY AM GLAD, BECAUSE I SENSE IT IS GOING TO BE AWESOME.
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You should totally write that! The awkwardness was why I was thinking about writing the post-Field Trip thing, too. It's like, hey! Your sister turned out to be starlight and then we got together and you were abducted and I found out I was pregnant and then you were dead and then you weren't and then you went on the run and I gave away the baby and we went on the run and theeeen ended up in a ramshackle house in Virginia! EXCEPT NONE OF IT HAPPENED. :D? . . . I like how I immediately wrote that from Scully's perspective. Um. I think I would have fun figuring out who hallucinated what, though -- it would have been a mutual hallucination, but parts of it would have been more inspired by one of them than the other? I can totally imagine Mulder hallucinating that his sister became starlight, and Scully hallucinating that Mulder died, especially since she already did. I have given way too much thought to this. ANYWAY. I cannot seem to stop spamming you tonight, SORRY.
I totally do have an unfinished thing sitting around somewhere. /o\ IDEK.
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AND IT'S FINE. I wouldn't've made this entry in the first place if I didn't secretly want an excuse to further avoid this.
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WOW I AM SUCH AN OVERTHINKER. I'm totally going to have to try to write this now. Aaah.
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BUT I REALLY AM GLAD, BECAUSE I SENSE IT IS GOING TO BE AWESOME.